So tomorrow is Friday the 13th for the second month in a row. Last month I was making a cake for an order. It was an Optimus Prime. For the most part, I am so happy with it, except for the generic letters.
See the Pic:)
The next day was Valentines Day. It was one of the most relaxing Valentines Day I have had. We went to see Coraline and had lunch out. Nice Day!
Then my world crumbled in on me. That Monday was a day I will never ever forget. My brother died that Monday. I woke up to my phone ringing and knew something was up when I say it was my dad. The next several days are a blur.
It has been almost a month since that awful day. And every day is hard. I am able to make it through most of the day without crying. I usually save it to when I shower. That way no one has to see me cry. And the cry helps me get through the next day. I know that I need to talk, I know that I cant continue to cry every day. But for now, I just wanna internalize it. When someone asks me how I am I just smile and say "day by day" which makes me feel like I am on the DL. I know I will survive this, I know that it will take time to feel again. But it isn't easy.
