Catching up!

So what's been going on with my life. Well a lot!

Where to start.

Mark passed away in February. That flipped my life upside-down to say the least! I still have not recovered from the grief. I doubt I ever will. At first it was hard to come to grips that I will never get to see him again. Or talk to him. But that hasn't proven to be true. I get to see and talk to him often. I have very vivid dreams about him. And we talk. And it feels healing and wonderful.

Work has been busy. The season has flown by. It has been great to be busy and keep my mind off of things that worry me.

I have been dealing with some body issues too. I have decided to have a hysterectomy to take care of the pain that I have. I have had a lot of people ask me if I am o'kay with not having anymore children. Now, that is a tricky question... at this current time in my life, I have to be okay without having any more children. Now, that isn't to say that I wouldn't like to have another baby, but that isn't going too happen. So I am at peace without having any more children of my own. Now, nieces and nephews are a different question...bring them on!

Speaking of Nephews and Nieces... So I have "adopted" several off my friends children as my nephews and nieces. A dear friend of mine of almost 10 years gave birth to her second son. He is adorable. So I have a new nephew:) So that makes my total of adopted nieces to 3 and 7 nephews!!!

I am back to being a Girl Scout Leader. I often find myself complaining about having to do yet another meeting or craft... but tonight proved to me why I do it. One of my girls is painfully shy. She isn't really into leading the group. Well she drew the pledge and song leader out of the capers jar. She was not happy with that at all. After the meeting she came up to me and said "Miss Nikki, thank you for being out leader. I love singing" That makes it all worth it!

I also took a sewing lesson... which was surprisingly easy. So I have been using my new found sewing skills to make aprons and pajama pants and purses... lots of fun!

I have also been doing a lot of cakes. I really enjoy making cakes. I have started to get more business. And I have started a cake blog:) www.cakesbynikki.blogspot.com

So there is my life in a nut shell... a very small, very cramped nutshell!

Back to blogging

So I have taken a hiatus from blogging. Mainly it is due to my life being rather hectic and not feeling like I have the time to blog.

But I need to get back with it.
So I am going to make more of an effort to blog at least once a week.

Someday

It's Friday afternoon and I am sitting at home waiting for the weekend to really start. I was just watching Project Runway and one of the designers said "someday you will be amazing...today is my someday!" That little phrase just struck a cord with me. I am not sure why, but it just did. It makes me think out when my someday is... or if my someday has already happened... or if my someday is everyday!

I truly believe that everyday is what you make of it. Everyday can be amazing. It's just up to you to make it amazing.

UGG

The pain has returned!!!!! Which leads me to believe that the endo has too!!!! UGGGGGGGG!!!! It is unbearable. I am in so much pain I feel like I could throw up!!! This is NOT good.

It's been awhile

I havent blogged in a very long time. I have had lots of things on my mind, but just no time to write them down.

So I am going to make time for it. Make time for Nikki.

Sleep

I need more of it... Just can't get it:(

I have not been sleeping well lately. My eyes are so heavy. I don't know what else to do to get more sleep. I am going to bed at a reasonable hour, I am excersising more, so I would think that would help me sleep better. I am taking a nice warm shower. No Caffine at night. So whats up with that???

I can fall asleep, just not a very restful sleep. I toss and turn all night. I feel spent every morning.

Ugg something has got to give.

Uggg!!!!!!!

That is it!